I'll be motivated to wash the dishes when there aren't any clean cups or spoons, ill be motivated do the laundry when all the baskets are full, ill be motivated to wash my car when there's bird shit EVERYWHERE..
OK so that's not really motivation is it? so this rant is basically me trying to figure out why i can do somethings & am freaked out to do other things.. these other things are about me going back to school..
so the deal is i was in uni completing a degree in design.. got married & thought i could continue it but got pregnant & had my baby (and then got pregnant again & had that baby) and now 4 years later i have 2 daughters & no babies so I'm thinking of going back to school to do something.. but what??
I like design I'm just not good at it. i am an appreciator. i love good design & i appreciate & respect those who can create good design. i also like art, but id rather study & analyse it, than paint a picture. So i also love languages & different cultures. if i had my way id be fluent in about 5 languages. i love reading & writing but again id rather read an awesome story than write one myself.. so this leaves me where...
at a recent hang out/gathering my friends were trying to help me figure out what to do, everyone was so supportive of me going back but I'm so clueless on what to do. I'm torn between just finishing my degree in 18 months and being done with it.. or finding what i love to do and studying that.. but in the back of my mind I'm always thinking two things
1) do i have the time/organisation skills/ dedication to go back to school full time with a family to take care of?
2) what degree can i do that will allow me to get a job once i graduate?
the someone said something brilliant, "I'm just doing my degree because i like it"
that sounds lovely but i guess having a family puts my way of thinking in a different place. if i get a job i have to think of one that is flexible & doesn't require too much of my time out of work. My mum came up with the suggestion of being a teacher and right now i see where she's coming from. there's currently a shortage of teachers so that's a plus however teachers aren't amongst the best paid people out there and my husband wants to be a teacher too. so i wonder if financially that would be okay for the family.
one thing i do know is that as a mother i am here to set the best example for my children and i know that takes a lot of hard work & dedication & yes... motivation too
as if these girls aren't motivation enough..
Thanks for your comments on my blog Sarah! :D Your well wishes are much appreciated.
ReplyDeleteI love the same things u do - and I got my b.a. in history, thinking I wanted to be a teacher. Then i got it in my head that I wanted to be research librarian - but the local universities didn't offer the degree program. And I wasn't interested in moving at the time.
It's so hard to try and make a living out of your interests, and still pay the bills.
I love fashion, and design, and that's partly the reason why I had been stuck in retail for soooo long. I just loved clothes too much, and kinda got addicted to the culture.
Now that I've got the baby, I have a whole 'nother set of dilemmas (career change, go back to retail, pursue other lines of work, get another degree?) Having my son has inspired and motivated me in more ways I could ever imagine............ He's more than worth it.
White Teeth, The Road, and On the Road - some of my fave books of all time. :D